Outside my window…
It is cold and the wind slices through like a sharp knife. It is gray outside and when the sun rises, it will be a new year.
I am thinking…
So much has happened in 2014.
We went to Chicago and Disney World. Spent much time as a family, having fun and enjoying each other. We learned so much from homeschool. Z and Ro learned to read and are now rockstars! We had lots of FIRSTS. We lost loved ones. We lost one of our own (miscarriage). We have had the opportunity to love and stand in the gap for others’ children. We have loved big and offered ourselves up. And, at times, we have cried hard – because loving big requires sacrifice. My computer died. And, I discovered another part of me and worked furiously to better my gifts to use for His service. We waited on pins and needles to hear answers that we weren’t sure we were ready for…and then were relieved to find out I did not have cancer. It’s been quite a year. A year of hope, a year of LOVING BIG, great loss, FIRSTS, and a year of WAITING. A year of learning and a year of discovery.
I am exhausted We did well.
Each year, I like to sit down and look at the previous year. Think about what we did well, what we didn’t, and how to improve myself and how to just do things better…self and family. Usually, I have some things I want to experience or learn. Like…new hobbies. Or, places to go.
And, now, as I sit here with notebook in hand…I wonder if this will be the year that God answers two heartbroken prayers. Or, if it’s a year of waiting and pruning. I’ve felt really “off” for the past few weeks… these last few weeks have really spun me around… death of a dear family member, waiting for tests results (cancer and heart), test results for my little girl, computer crashing and losing over 300 files, etc. It’s been a LOT.
But, I wanted to set some goals. So, here’s what I have so far…
1. First thing in the morning… I want to spend more time in God’s Word. Lately, I’ve plugged it in whenever I could. Sometimes, I missed. I will start reading AT THE VERY LEAST … a Proverbs Chapter a day in the mornings to give me something to hold onto. I need it like I need water. Then, I will ALSO add in more in-depth study as I can, when I can. (Which will still be 3+ x a week)
2. Move more. At least 5 minutes of yoga or stretching or exercise of any kind. First thing in the morning. Every morning.
3. Be more consistent about my daily 3 things. This is something I already do when I feel overwhelmed. I make a list of 3 things I MUST DO that day. If all else fails, I’ll have done those 3 things.
4. Pick up/organize/trash 30 things each day. Every little rubber band counts.
5. Work on organizing my house. And, cleaning. After the holidays, it always feels a little “AHHH!” in here when it comes to the new clutter of “things” collected and boxes and trash and glitter. I will work on one room a week in addition to our normal straightening and chores we do.
6. Count my glasses. Water glasses, that is. 8 8oz glasses a day is what I need.
7. Get my stickies out. When we lived at the other place, I had scripture SURROUNDING us. We had to. It was as important as air to us. I will be getting those back out and placing them around the house. I will work hard at memorizing scripture. Because it matters.
8. Stay unplugged for certain hours of the day. I will check my phone/email in the morning, midday (approximately), and once in the evening. I will give myself certain times to make phone calls/texts (social).
9. Admire beauty. My goal is to get outside more. Every day. At least once a day…even if it’s just to walk around the yard one lap after the kids are down for a nap. Fresh air is good, and it’s great to be able to admire God’s creation.
10. Go back to my “task days.” I have a system for when I get overwhelmed… a day for laundry/cleaning (actually…one day and a half day), a day for creativity, a day for bills and sending cards, etc). I want to do this more regularly.
11. 5 minutes midday quiet time with God. Every day. It may be more like 1 pm here. But, just to sit in His presence.
12. Create a daily celebration…something to make each day special. I’m not sure what I want to do, yet. Maybe light a candle after naptime for an early-evening snack and some pretty music for the kiddos?
13. Take time each day to work on what God has called me to do. (Writing. Podcasts. Teaching.)
14. Add 3-5 things to my THANKFUL LIST each day — will be able to do this in my new planner!
15. Prayer List Cards. I was doing this faithfully but then slacked off. I write prayer requests on a flip deck of note-cards and pray them constantly throughout the day.
16. Take more photos.
17. Learn some great hymns to sing as we go.
18. IF we are still in this home… some paint and decor in my sad, dark bedroom!
19. More of this: Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. –In my speech, in my thoughts, in my day to day activities.
20. Grow in patience.
THIS YEAR (2015), I want to GROW DEEPER. Deeper in church (involved). Grow in my spiritual gifts. Deeper time with my kids and my husband (separately). Grow in patience. Deeper in community (relationships and service). Grow deeper in the relationships I already have and those I hold dear. Deeper in personal study, prayer, and peace. Grow deeper in making our home a home full of love, peace, and acceptance…and hope.
I am thankful…
51. For “supper club” friends and great conversations around the table, eating delicious food.
52. For do-overs.
53. To not have cancer.
54. To have amazing doctors…and friends…
55. For people who talk me down from my proverbial “ledges” when my “freak-out” starts to show up.
56. That we were able to save so many files when my computer crashed… photos of loved ones and many files with hard work
57. Laughing so hard that tears creep from the corners of my eyes
58. Health of my babes
59. for a husband who tries mighty hard…over and over again.
60. For a husband who thinks I’m funny and laughs at my jokes.
61. For a husband who forgives easily.
62. For people in my life that inspire me.
In the kitchen…
Chicken is in the crockpot, to be shredded and refrigerated for tomorrow night’s Chicken Pot Pie. Tonight? Nachos, Jalapeno Poppers, Pizza, and Chicken Wings it is.
We/I am learning…
Ro and Z are finishing up their first grade reading stuff. La is learning multiplication facts (BLAH! I have them down but hate drilling her as much as she dislikes being drilled. Yet, it’s something I really want her to know!) Mimi got the big 3 IXL as one of their Christmas gifts, so we’ve had fun practicing math online and earning points.
We calculated behavior points and grades for December and Ro earned student of the month! We are super excited. (When a kid is student of the month, they get a prize.) A little extra incentive to get rid of some unwanted behaviors we saw creeping in…as well as enticing certain students to do their work…and TRY!)
Around the house…
It’s New Year’s Eve and yet, it will probably be an EARL Y night for us. I think last year (or maybe year before?), we were all sick and in bed by 8pm! So thankful we are not sick, but we may still hit the hay early!
A favorite quote…
One of my favorite things…
Erin Condren Life Planners! These are so PRETTY and neat! They have TONS of styles. I ordered one for 2015. They are a little more than what I’d typically spend on your average planner, but these things have lots of room to write and I plan to also use it for homeschooling, so win-win! You can personalize them, choose different fonts/quotes/designs and even add photos of your family! SO STINKIN’ COOL!