I feel sick.  Like I have a thousand knots all tied together in my stomach.  Like I have the weight of the world crushing in on my chest.  I’m scared.  Sad.  Frustrated.  Hopeful.  Terrified.  My emotions whirl through my head like a hurricane on crack.

And I’m struggling to hold onto the edge, struggling not to lose my footing – even though I’m not even sure if I’m still even standing at this point.

There’s so much I just want to bare.  I want to set it free, to get it out of me.  To be able to breathe.

But I can’t.

Not this time.

Please pardon me while I’m gone for a little while longer, and if you have any extra prayers to send up on my behalf, please do.  I could really use them.

Welcome back!