God is really rocking my world.  He’s molding me, and I’m grateful (although that doesn’t always mean it’s fun.)

Wednesday, I resigned from my out-of-the-home job.  It was a difficult thing to do, but it was the right thing to do.  I adore the people there, I adore the ministry, I adored what I did — but, it was taking me away from my first ministry that God had called me to – my children.

Our lives have seasons, and I am so thankful for the one I had there…and I really believe I’ll be back there in a different season of my life.  Just not now.  I know that I will struggle with “homesickness” from the place and the guilt of no longer “contributing” to our income.  But, some things are bigger.  Like, God.  Like, what he’s called me to do and who he has called me to be.

I could feel myself being weighed down from the many things i was trying to do and be to many people, and the stress was physically attacking me.  I deliberated and prayed, wishing God would be so clear…and then He was.  My children were entrusted to me by Him.  They were both miracle babies in their own ways.  They were gifts that I prayed and longed for.  I also knew that God had given me this job and I didn’t want to walk away if I was meant to be there but He let me know that some things just don’t matter…and this was one of them.  This job was for my benefit and it wasn’t to my benefit any longer.

He released me.

My husband released me.  He saw how it was physically and mentally affecting me.

My family released me.

Then, my employer (and friend) and co-workers/friends released me.

I feel free.

I realize that there will be a few worldly people who will feel the need (and have) to corner me and ask me if I don’t think I’m being “just a little irresponsible.”  And, no.  I don’t.  I think some things are bigger than money and what God calls us to do is one of them.

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