And perhaps to persuade you that I’m not a negative nancy… despite my latest posts…

The truth is, I feel like crap and therefore almost everything right now seems to be covered in crap.  Like crap-goggles.  But, I know it’s because I’m sick and have been sick for over a month (imagine having a horrid stomach flu non stop for 30-40 days straight and you still aren’t anywhere close) and my life will be all sunshine and fluffy kitties and smart ass remarks very soon.  I promise.

For now, though…I’m going to document a few of the things that really make me smile.  It’s not really a blessing list, because to be honest…no matter how much I bitch my blessing list is HUGE because I’m a very thorough gal and by the time I finish today, I’d have to start again for tomorrow’s.  It’s not that I’m not thankful, I just try to spare you from gagging from it all.

Things that made me smile lately…

…My daughter.  Oh, how she is growing.  She caught me crying today and wasn’t sure whether she wanted to cry with me or what…  She began “crying (without tears)” with the most pitiful expression which only made me cry harder and reach out to hug her.  Unsatisfied, she grabbed my toes and wrinkled her little nose (as if my feet smelled) and made the most hilarious faces.  Then she moved her little fingers along the bottom of my feet squealing “Tickletickletickle!!”  This kid?  She’s my sunshine.

…My family.  In the past week, they’ve taken me in, fed me, and taken care of both myself and Lorelei.  Mom, dad, my aunts, Grams…thank you.  Really.  Sometimes, all you need to know is that you are not alone and when you can’t stand, there will be someone holding you up.  I hear a lot of “If you ever need me…” and it never goes any further than that.  It’s nice to have people reach out and insist on being there even when you aren’t ready to admit that you can’t do it yourself.

…Little kisses from Lorelei.  Unasked for and totally random.  She will just cross the room for a kiss.

…”Happy”.  Again, the kid.  What can I say?  She’s learned a new word: Happy.  And, she can show you her “sad” face which is terribly cute and makes her look much like a little grumpy old man.

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